Tandem

I am sorry I yelled and fussed and fought…
I am sorry for everything I bought..into
I am sorry for all the wasted years
Filled with pain and arguments and tears
I am sorry for all the struggle and the pain
All the worthless junk that brought us no gain
I am sorry I carried baggage in from the past
I am sorry that there wasn’t happiness to start
That we never really tried, that we hurt each other
That we lied.
I am sorry for all that…and more
I am not sorry however that we never shut the door
I am not sorry that we have a child
I am not sorry that we will walk miles of new years, new fears, new unknowing
New doorways, new beginnings, all through our son.
I am not sorry for every inch of ground that was won…back
With every new understanding, with every breath with every kiss…with every ounce of forgiveness
From our heart,
Knowing that our lives won’t be far apart.
One day we may live in tandem,
In a partnership or in conjunction
And seated in that carriage drawn by horses one before the other…
Representing us.

Angelica D. Carmouche
8 September 2010

Wyclef Jean running for president of Haiti. One person's opinion

What do I think of Wyclef Jean running for president of Haiti?

Seriously, it is a hard call because for one it can be looked upon as a publicity seeking stunt due to the fact that his interest in the Haitian government reached its peak after the disaster occurred. I know he is Haitian but I do not know if he was raised here in the U.S. or not, it doesn't matter. I do not know how close his ties are to Haiti. Plus I do not know if he is even eligible by their laws to run. So I find it hard to make a call on something that I do not know all the facts of the case on. However, as a black man he seems to be attempting to do something positive for black ppl and I find it difficult to speak ill of the situation if that be the case.

I would say this, look and listen to what others in politics are saying about him and his bid to run. Are they speaking ill of his decision and if so what are they basing their comments and opinions on? I have said that the enemy doesn't attack a person that belongs to him but only attacks when that person is doing the will of God. If Wyclef is being attacked by members of government and the media then maybe it is his calling by God to do exactly what he is doing at this moment. He certainly isn't doing it for the money. He should by now have plenty of that. He doesn't have to do what he is doing and he definitely has other choices because the situation that he is putting himself into can possibly cost him his life (assassination). I am sure he is not going into this trying to be a saint or a martyr so he must have another form of reason as to why he has chosen to go this route. God uses ppl in different ways, just because we do not understand the reason why God chose someone to do something and not another person doesn't give us the right or the free license to say that they are wrong for doing it.

Look at how the media and political groups are attacking Pres. Obama; he must be doing the will of God because ppl wouldn't attack him even now almost two years into his presidency if he wasn't. The enemy attacks when you do the will of God because he wants you to falter. God is not a God of confusion, God is a God of perfect clarity and perfect peace.

Angelica

Possibly having my Memoirs published

There is a possibility that I could write a novel based on my life. I have to really think hard about this. Who I was and who I am today and how I became. I don't even know where I would start. Would I start with my days in dance? Or would I start with the day I almost drowned at five years old in the pool? Or would I start when I awoke from a dream at the age of three and ran into my parents room and asked them to tell me about Jesus. Would I tell start by telling the world that I have been attacked spiritually ever since the age of youth when I first saw something odd...or would I speak of the fact that a single incident stopped me from going to the order and instead I joined the military...how a single decision changed the possible course of my life forever...? There have been many bifurcations in the roads for me and I have been warned on each side and have ignored each warning side reaping the adverse consequence of it all...where would I start? How could I explain that there is a possible greater purpose for all of the things that I have experienced good or bad...and the insights and the blessings I have gained in between even though of course my life is far from over? How would I start and who would want to read it?

Being published

Alot of people figure that once they get published everyone will read their work. Unfortunately this is not true. Being published and being a pubished author who acutally have readers are completely different things. It takes alot of time, work and dedication to yourself as an artist and to your art in order to get noticed. Even if you do get published be aware that publishing companies that publish on demand are not always recognized as having your book in stock. Expect some rejection but be faithful to yourself because again time and effort pays off. No one is a better promoter of your work than you are!

Auditions

Well, my bro got his wristband this past weekend and he auditioned for the producers of the show American Idol today. He did well but not well enought to get passed on to the judges. Not to worry though, he says he is not giving up and I do not blame him. He is talented. I hope that he tries again soon as there is another audition opportunity in Tx or at least tries again next year! Go head little bro!

American Idol

American Idol, how we love to watch that show. Man but my favorite judge is not going to be there this year...too bad for him...anyway. My brother is auditioning for American Idol this year and I am going to be the one taking him out to the spot to register! Wow oh wow oh wow! Well, I hope he sings and does well because this is the opportunity for him to do so.

In any event, I happen to realize that there are certain people out there who have been told that they can sing and they actually cannot. Well, my brother being a mere 16 years of age is no stranger to competition. He has won national singing competitions so I am not worried that he will get out there and do his thing if given the chance. The boy is talented, he not only sings he plays the keyboard as well! He is self taught so that is motivation for you. I am proud of him for being such a go-getter and I pray that all goes well as we journey out here soon for this registration.

If he makes it I will be making my celebratory blog of course letting everyone know that my lil bro will be on American Idol! I will keep you all posted.

Starry Sleep

I would sleep when the stars winked at me
And I would wink back
I would sleep when the stars formed a cradle for me
rocking me in the night sky
I would sleep when the stars sing to me
their secret lullaby.

Angelica Carmouche